Quote:

"Your journey to a purposeful and inspired life begins when you acknowledge the primordial creative power within you-the godliness-and then harness that power to achieve the results you desire" Jillian Michaels

Unlimited chapter 1

I'm working through my Jillian Michaels book " unlimited" and one of the first questions she asked is what is my goal? I never thought of working through life towards a goal, but now that I am I realize this goal has to be a serious one. I have thoughts in my head like "ok, I wann loose weight" but when it come down to it I do eat those tostitos as soon as I get home. So I really need to think of this goal idea. I guess that's my goal for the week, what actually is my life goal right now?

She also asks what am I good at, and since I've never really thought about it either Im going to make a list. This list will be good for when I'm feeling low and down on myself. I will be constantly adding things to it because I always remember later when having to remember a to do list etc. Here goes:

I am good at:
1. Dancing
2. Being on time
3. Sharing
4. From Greg: good with children
5. Taking care of Ty
6. Prioritizing
7. Styling other people
8. Extrovert
9. I'm good in casual and intimate settings
10. I get excited by new projects but enjoy the stability of something established.
11. I like to be moving around with things to do
12. I did enjoy serving food at the soup kitchen
13. I enjoy working a lone for the most part though I do like working with people that inspire me.
14. I'm definitely a creative person
15. I believe in not littering, caring for people, and embracing the daily dilemmas without stress
16. I want to take a hip hop dance class, I've never done it.


My list of hobbies that I don't currently make money from:

1. Clothing design
2. Jewelry design
3. Styling
4. Painting/art
5. Baking
6. Cooking
7. Inspiring people
8. my favorite thing to do is shop
9. My favorite class in college was assemblage with Randy Williams my art teacher
10. My ideal day would be; exercising , a yoga class, and finding rest.

Two people in my head

Came home last night and ate chips with melted pepper jack cheese on them and dipped it in guacamole. Then preceded to eat some chocolate and starburst. It was almost an out of body experience. I felt like I was two different people, the Midge who wrote earlier that day was struggling but this Midge at home isn't and she can eat what she wants with no repercussion. Through the whole chowing down I witnessed this head game I was playing, but didn't stop myself. Weird, I know.

I did get up and go to the gym. I got on the treadmill to power walk and maybe run if I felt into it. I did run, for 10 minutes and a pretty fast paced stride for 2 minutes right at the end. I didn't want to stop, but I knew I wanted to try a workout plan I saw on YouTube. I didn't do the whole set, but I did two sets of it and my legs are shaking and I feel like I worked hard.

So I'm proud I got to the gym and I'm proud that I will be counting calories today. I started with breakfast already and plan to buy a low calorie soup for lunch and something clean and easy for dinner.

This will happen for me because I believe in myself and see my goals when I close my eyes.

I'm strong!

Lately I haven't been able to get up and go to the gym. I always wake up with some excuse, but then instantly regret it when I do finally get up. Because I didn't get up and go to the gym today I promised myself I would eat healthy. I packed my lunch and made myself eat within 1,300 calorie range. So far I have done ok. I always need something sweet after lunch so instead of finding some leftover Halloween chocolate, I sucked on a jolly rancher and then had some tea. I feel I made a huge adjustment to my normal behavior just doing that.

After dinner I usually want something sweet as well and I started heading over to Baskin Robbins. On my way there I stopped and said to myself "you are going to be so mad at yourself later". I turned around and went and got a natural juice drink. Another major accomplishment in my day.

I feel proud right now, it's like I beat my cravings in a way. I can do this, I can loose weight. I have done this before and I want to do it again. One meal at a time :)